Experiments In Loving Jessica And Her Name

Jessica Lynn is my wife, and I love her.  That is really good that I got that out into the open and made that point very, very clear.  This whole site is about my love for her and about how much I love Jess – my wife.  It is also an experiment of sorts, I guess.

I really like experiments.  They are fun and make me think about things in ways that I have never been able to before.  I’m not exactly sure what I am trying to experiment with with this little blog, but I know that it has something to do with Jessica and my love for her.

I want her to know how easy it is for me to love her.  She makes it so simple for me and I can’t get over how deeply and madly in love with her I am.  I can’t always show it as I ought, and I don’t always act as I want – but there really is a deep and affectionate love in my heart for Jess.

I remember a long time ago, before we were really together and definitely before I told her that I loved her, I used to call Jess “Jessica.”  It would be the only way I addressed her.  Calling her “Jess” was too familiar for me and I didn’t want to be taking liberties with her name like that.  Her name is something special and breaking the barrier of familiarity with her too soon would have been something that I felt was rather taboo.  A woman’s name is something special.

Names tell you something about the person, nicknames can tell you even more.  Jessica means “God sees” and I have to be honest, God would spend a lot of time looking at this daughter of his.  She is so beautiful, I am sure that God is so full of joy at how wonderfully she images him.  She is patient, she is kind, she is not quick to anger, she does not boast, she is long suffering and bear with many of my wrongs.  She is peaceful.  She is righteous (but not in a justifying before God sense, for that she rests in Jesus for).

So to call her “Jess” – to turn her true name into a familiar one reserved for those closest to her person- was not something I was going to take lightly.  She deserved more honor and respect than that, or so my simple mind thought early in our relationship.

But then once we were “together” this sort of thing continued.  I called her Jessica, and eventually she let me know that this was weird.  Afterall, everyone who was close to her called her Jess so by still calling her Jessica I was creating a distance between use, a barrier that she wanted to have torn down.  I can understand now where she was coming from, but at the time I just thought I was messing things up.

It all worked out in the end and I eventually said, “I love you Jess.”  She love me too by the way, but was waiting for me to say it first because that is what is right.  Let the man lead, it is his role.  I am so glad I said those words and I will say them until the day one of us dies (and probably after the day she dies if she dies first) – I love Jess!

I Love Jess

I just want to take this opportunity to say that I love Jess (Jessica Lynn Mueller).  She is the one that fills my heart with joy and she make my life wonderful.  Jess, I love you and am so happy that I get to spend the rest of my life with you.  This little blog will contain some of the many, many reasons that I love Jess.

Also, I hope that you have found this blog through the only search engine that really means anything through the phrase “I love Jess.”  I got the idea for this sometime in early October 2008 and immediately wanted to turn all the things that I have been learning about the internet toward this one goal – rank well for this term so that I could tell you in some way around Christmas to get on the internet and to search for something like “I love Jess always” – which I will by the way (love you always) because even when we are dead I will love you because we will both be the King’s bride.

There are so many different ways that I want to tell you that I love you, so the plan of this website is to include 365 posts from Christmas 2008 to Christmas Eve 2009 that outline all the ways that I love Jess.  I don’t know what each of them will be, but I am sure that they will include things like:

I love Jess because she is a good cook.

I love Jess because her heart is so special.

I love Jess because her mind is sharp.

I love Jess because of the way the morning sun falls upon her eyes.

With 365 days to express my love for Jess I am going to get a little creative, including all sorts of things that express my feelings for her.  The biggest challenge to this is going to be ordering the posts into meaningful categories and then scheduling them in a way that I actually remember what days have posts on them as I march through this bonanza of all the ways that I love Jess.

I plan on using all the techniques that I have been learning over the past several months to get the search engines to find this high quality, very specific content for the search term I love Jess. I mean that is what this site is going to be about in every way.

So when it comes down to it, I hope this makes you feel just a little bit as special as you are, Jess. You are worth every minute that this could take to pull off and so many more. You deserve to feel so good about who you are because you are so beautiful. I love you Jess, and hope that this expresses that to you.